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I've never been somewhere with closer correlations to a roller coaster before coming here. I fell asleep on a roller coaster, once. My girlfriend - at the time - was pretty furious with me. She didn't talk to me for the rest of the day. Kind of killed our day out.

All things considered? Sometimes I wish I could sleep through this ride. It better be a long time until we start the next steep climb.

[Private to Angelica]

Are you all right? I'm sorry if I, uh, really hurt you. [Yes, he's checking up on her. It's what he does. :c]

[Private to Bruce]

Sylar wants to talk, but he wants me there. You pick the time, he'll pick the place.

[Private to Shego]

I'm coming to see you. [NOT A QUESTION >|]

[Filtered to friends]

[He's biting back apologies. He blames himself in a big way for a lot of this stuff.] Everyone okay?

[Private to Seven]

How are you doing? [He figures that this having been Rex's fault has not left him a happy man.]

[Private to Sylar]

You all right?

[Edited in:] Bruce said Wednesday.

[Private to Tosh]

This is a lot later than I meant it to be, but things came up and...well. I figured out what the device does.

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Mostly being the key word. Are you at least pretending to take it easy?

[PAUSE, PAUSE, PAUSE, damn it, this is bothering her.]

...Did you see Dick's post? Before it disappeared?

Pretending very well.

[Oh boy.]

Yeah, I saw. What's on your mind? [Well he knows, he just. Wants to hear it from her.]

I expected nothing less. Just try to get some real rest in there too, okay?

[Nnnngh, Tim, why. :| Articulating issues? What is this. Give her a minute.]

I don't know. I just--sometimes... [Sometimes there are GUILT ISSUES. And sometimes she changes the subject!]

I had to put Martha, Sveta and Molly in Zero.

[Sometimes Tim catches on. :|]

I'll help, if you stop changing the subject.

[DAMN IT TIM, THIS IS HARD. :| She's... probably earned this after all the times she's bullied him into talking, huh?]

I don't know that there's anything to help. It's just--my stupid head. [PAUSE, PAUSE, PAUSE] Cassie never, ever got it. Why I quit and can't go back. Dick... I don't know, would he get it if he knew? How do I--I want to help, Tim. I do everything I can and it's never--it's not enough. I had to put three of my best friends into Zero because someone injected them with mind-controlling technology and all I could do was leave them there. Something's wrong with Sylar but he won't tell me what it is because I "won't understand." It's not--I don't mean to change the subject, I just don't know what the subject is.

[Yes. Yes she has. :|]

...You did what you had to. It doesn't matter if anyone gets it.

[Oops. Unfortunately Tim, you're dealing with a girl. Who is currently all dljdfkjdhd about things. :| Good luck.]

I know, that's not--I don't mean that. I don't really care if they get it. [LIAR. Sort of.]

[THERE'S A LONG WAIT BETWEEN THESE and she sounds kind of defeated now.]

...What kind of person am I, Tim? If I can help, but I don't? Even if I don't because I can't.

[...Sorry Tim. She's not making much sense to herself either right now.]

[...Sob, Cissie, why are you so confusing.]

Cissie, you made this decision already. How would you feel, if we were home, and you decided to be Arrowette again? [He's starting with that because. Uh. He remembers the Aztec thing. :\]

[Because she remembers that Aztec thing too. :| And. You know. It's only a mini-existential crisis, that's all.]

That's not--I'm not saying I want that. I don't. I just... Forget it. Never mind.

[Tiny, in the scheme of things! :|]

No, talk to me. I think I owe you, at this point. Or the other way around. My point is, being here might be different than being home - but you still have to make a choice, and you don't have to let anyone influence you. What Dick says - it applies to Dick. That's his choice, it doesn't have to be yours.

[Exactly! ...It takes a while before she responds to that.]

I know it doesn't really matter what Dick or anyone else thinks. And I know I have to do the right thing, even if it's hard. I've made that choice, and I make again it every day. I'm just... do you have any idea how hard it is? I practically had to tie you to the bed to keep you from running off with a gunshot wound, Stephanie sneaks out of the infirmary every chance she gets and even gets people to smuggle her out, and Dick--he goes on and on about how it's an easy choice, it's simple, because hey, if you can help people, that's what you do! But it's not simple and it's not easy and every time someone gets hurt or dies, the first thing I think about is if I could have stopped it if I'd been there. And then I think about what I might have done if I'd been there and couldn't stop it and--either way, I'm useless.

You are not useless. You kept me from running off and getting killed, you helped Molly, you help a lot of people. Who says you have to do it the way I do? Or the way your mom wanted you to? Did you have to sit and think about whether it was right to keep me from leaving with a bullet in my shoulder?

No, of course not. [DAMN IT TIM SHE CAN'T ARGUE WITH LOGIC]

[HAH.] Well good. Because if you had needed to, and I'd managed to sneak out, I might have - I don't know - lost any actual use of it. [He's going to hate himself next time he has to argue his way into being let out. :|a] That was a simple choice.

[On the plus side, this is helpful?] You do know I'm going to use that against you at some point, right?

[Tim counts this as a win, then.] I regretted it as I said it.

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