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[peektuttut]

So now that the fun's passed...should we put the money we don't have on another flood in a week?

Don't worry. I'm knocking on wood and everything. [He doesn't sound particularly bitter, really. More along the lines of tired.]

[Private to Shego]

[He so doesn't know if they're talking about this, but.] So...guess it's too much to hope that you took a good look at specs for anything cool, huh?

[Private to the Seventh Doctor]

Think the Admiral's trying to tell us something?

[Private to Sylar]

Ready to talk?

Comments

Private

[peektuttut]

But you could think. You could function.

Private

[grayatonement]

Not well enough.

Private

[peektuttut]

But better than when you didn't have them here?

Private - lolsorry

[grayatonement]

Different.

Private - s'all good!

[peektuttut]

...So it was a special kind of torture.

Private

[grayatonement]

It's almost funny when you say it like that.

Yes. Both less painful and more so.

Private

[peektuttut]

Figured we could do with lightening the mood.

How was it more painful?

Private

[grayatonement]

It was as if I'd never had them.

Private

[peektuttut]

You were normal.

Private

[grayatonement]

Like I said: more painful.

Private

[peektuttut]

I understand.

Private

[grayatonement]

Good.

Private

[peektuttut]

You can't go back to normalcy. It doesn't feel like enough.

Private

[grayatonement]

I never fit in when I was normal. In school, work. Life. Anything. It's not just that I don't want to. I can't. I won't.

Private

[peektuttut]

There's a difference between can't and won't. Which is it?

Private

[grayatonement]

Can't.

Private

[peektuttut]

I know it can be hard. You're not the only on in the world - in the multiverse, I guess - who hasn't felt like he fit in anywhere. But you don't have to be bitter about it. Not forever.

Private

[grayatonement]

I'm not bitter. [He totally is.] And it's different.

Private

[peektuttut]

You are bitter. And that's understandable.

Private

[grayatonement]

I'm not bitter. I don't want to be normal. I never have.

Private

[peektuttut]

Really? I mean, truthfully. Not once?

Private

[grayatonement]

I've been bitter in my life, yes. Not for this.

[Hrm. Maybe that's not true.] Why would I want to be normal?

Private

[peektuttut]

Because we're programmed to seek out others. Feeling like you belong is a really powerful thing.

Private

[grayatonement]

I can belong without being normal.

Besides, I'm better than that, than them.

Private

[peektuttut]

And I'm smarter than most people I know. That doesn't mean I'm better than them. Is it so hard to just accept normality? For other other people, if not for yourself?