➹ 54 | Voice

[peektuttut]

So now that the fun's passed...should we put the money we don't have on another flood in a week?

Don't worry. I'm knocking on wood and everything. [He doesn't sound particularly bitter, really. More along the lines of tired.]

[Private to Shego]

[He so doesn't know if they're talking about this, but.] So...guess it's too much to hope that you took a good look at specs for anything cool, huh?

[Private to the Seventh Doctor]

Think the Admiral's trying to tell us something?

[Private to Sylar]

Ready to talk?

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Private

[peektuttut]

Port. You said we'd talk later.

Private

[grayatonement]

I said you could talk later. So talk.

Private

[peektuttut]

I said we. What was going on there, Sylar? I know it must have been difficult.

Private

[grayatonement]

What was going on? Cissie was my sister, Iago my father. I was engaged to Claire.

By the end, I could barely think. Every part of me ached with longing, but it wasn't the same as when you remove them here. As level 0. It was different, somehow. As if they'd never existed. As if I was that boy again, before I was special. I hated it.

Private

[peektuttut]

But you could think. You could function.

Private

[grayatonement]

Not well enough.

Private

[peektuttut]

But better than when you didn't have them here?

Private - lolsorry

[grayatonement]

Different.

Private - s'all good!

[peektuttut]

...So it was a special kind of torture.

Private

[grayatonement]

It's almost funny when you say it like that.

Yes. Both less painful and more so.

Private

[peektuttut]

Figured we could do with lightening the mood.

How was it more painful?

Private

[grayatonement]

It was as if I'd never had them.

Private

[peektuttut]

You were normal.

Private

[grayatonement]

Like I said: more painful.

Private

[peektuttut]

I understand.

Private

[grayatonement]

Good.

Private

[peektuttut]

You can't go back to normalcy. It doesn't feel like enough.

Private

[grayatonement]

I never fit in when I was normal. In school, work. Life. Anything. It's not just that I don't want to. I can't. I won't.

Private

[peektuttut]

There's a difference between can't and won't. Which is it?

Private

[grayatonement]

Can't.

Private

[peektuttut]

I know it can be hard. You're not the only on in the world - in the multiverse, I guess - who hasn't felt like he fit in anywhere. But you don't have to be bitter about it. Not forever.

Private

[grayatonement]

I'm not bitter. [He totally is.] And it's different.

Private

[peektuttut]

You are bitter. And that's understandable.

Private

[grayatonement]

I'm not bitter. I don't want to be normal. I never have.

Private

[peektuttut]

Really? I mean, truthfully. Not once?